Do you ever feel stuck? Like you should be doing something that you aren’t doing? It could be that you know exactly what you should do but you just can’t do it, for whatever reason. Or you just keep doing what you should stop doing? I have felt that way for over a year. I could blame it on Covid, but that’s not entirely true. I do believe that has contributed to it, but it’s more complicated than that, multi-layered. I went through a difficult season where I spent a ton of time in prayer and Bible reading, working to become who God created me to be. When that time ended, I felt drained, emotionally, physically, spiritually. I keep telling myself I need to exercise, it will help, but I just can’t seem to get up off the couch. I need to write in my journal, but I just don’t have the words. Have you felt that way or is it just me? It’s the catch 22. I would feel better if I would exercise, but I just don’t have the energy, so I don’t get up, which makes me feel bad about myself, so I don’t get up and so on… I have been told to just “pull my socks up and do it!” Yep, that’s what I need to do, but…somehow still, I just can’t do it. Sigh…Well, I have to start somewhere, maybe just a little at a time, so here goes…
I finally got myself up off the couch this week and have walked three times on the treadmill (too cold to go outside). That’s my goal for now – 3 times a week for at least 40 minutes each time.
I have also started being crafty again. I love making soaps and different bath products. It’s one of the ways I have wanted to use my talents to help others. Especially after dealing with cancer, I want to make products that are natural, that people feel good about using. I hadn’t made anything for a couple of years. My friends tell me they LOVE my soaps, so I thought why not?! I ended up selling them most of my left over inventory so I have made more. I’ve made 3 types of soaps, some lotion bars and even some body butter. Now to package, market and sell!
I have been working for a few months as a long term sub. I really enjoyed it, but struggled with the early morning and fitting in my quiet time. I am reading the Bible in a year again. I am using the You Version Bible app and the plan is “The Bible Recap” with Tara-Leigh Cobble. It’s great. After the reading for the day, she has a podcast that goes deeper and explains what was in the text. It’s been very enlightening.
I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to get up and exercise every day, or write in my journal every day, or never watch tv. Neither do you. It’s all about baby steps. Just put one foot in front of the other and take a step. Then take another and another. Maybe today I write and post this, tomorrow I walk, and the next day…who knows. I do know that God is with me, always walking beside me, cheering me on to be my best self. I need to live my life fully and with Him I can. And so can you!